Time Stamp : 4/11/2020

on wishing

I kind of wish the loudest would whisper just a while.

I kind of wish there was a little more quiet.

I wish people wouldn’t make believe they “know” what the Father is “doing”. It’s cool if you do... but it’s ok if you’re quiet.

I’ve noticed three kinds of people in this season: “the KNOWER”, “the COMFORTER” and “the PLEADER”. I’d love to hear more from “the WISE”, the old in age and the seasoned in Spirit.

I wish people held hands a little better. Not literally but in Spirit.

I wish this was a time or friendship and encouragement. 

And I think it is... but then again, it’s dangerous to touch. So how can we feed others? It’s dangerous to get close so how can we uplift?

On knowing

And there’s tik tok and dancing and family parties and more. I just wish that was it, with out all of the “knowing”. 

I wrote a song years ago, fans of my music may have heard of it. It’s called “I Know Nothing”. It’s about God being God and me being me. Sure, He speaks. But sometimes that means silence on my end. 

I wonder if there’s still a such thing as humility and surrender. Submission and listening. I wonder how awful it is to notice where help is coming from. It might be humbling to see it, acknowledge it and run to it... but maybe there’s time for redirection. 

I’ve been melancholy. If you read my posts, you know that’s my primary emotion. Decorated with jewel tones and a red lip, I am the definition of melancholy. I’ve been surprisingly planning a lot for the future. Business calls are going well. 

On work

I’m surprised. As much as I like to be still, I’m absolutely ready to get back on the road. I have 17 shows planned. Lord have your way. 

I’m working on some awesome things for fans of my captions and photography, personality and thoughts. I am beyond stoked about that. But I’m pretty quiet right now. I don’t wanna miss it. What ever this is. And I’m being honest about who and what I love. And I’m not apologizing for it. And I’m letting go of what doesn’t serve me. And I’m doing ALOT of crunches. Like... a LOT. 

On being present

Anyways... what are you noticing during this time? What has your city done that made you think? Anything different in your thought process? Any new business ideas? Revelations? New prayers? New love? Oh, I’d love to find out you’re falling in love. In romance, I happen to be hopeless (yet, hopeful).

xo,

CM

you can listen to “I Know Nothing” here: https://music.apple.com/us/album/i-know-nothing/1446733229?i=1446733715