An Excerpt from: "How To Hear From God"

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I’ve had some very public inertia. Public rejection came to shake me up. The Spirit asked me to return from fear of rejection to freedom. It asked me to make the most of the voice and the platform God gave me. It asked me to stop looking around to see where I belong and instead stand in the very place God carved out for me.

“How could I be a girl who sings R&B when I was raised in church, God? Everyone else is singing Gospel music, how come I’m not just like them?”

I pushed against who I was called to be until inertia pushed me smack dab in the center of Gods voice. I didn’t realize God made me with my voice and tone for a reason. He made me with my style and soul for a reason. I feared committing to it. I didn’t want my Christian counterparts to reject me. So, I had to be introduced to rejection so that I could stop fearing it. God met me at the corner of rejection and the fear of it, and walked me to acceptance by the only Source that matters. 

It was traumatizing. It was humiliating. It was public and it was relentless but guess what? I’m better for it. I had the privilege of healing. I would have never gotten accustomed to the voice, tone, character, personality and ways of God, if I hadn’t had inertia, or the circumstances that broke me to my core and made me new. Breaking isn’t the enemy. Resisting healing is. 

Sometimes healing isn’t just about the present inertia that has shaken you up. Sometimes healing is about the layering of wrong thinking that has taken you out of Gods perfect will for our life. Inertia is sometimes a last straw. Sometimes it’s the last bang after many soft pushes. I was so concerned with what “church folk” thought about me and how I was perceived by the Christian community that I didn’t give fully anywhere. I gave pieces of me, everywhere. It’s what broken people do. No part of them is whole, so they offer broken pieces everywhere they go. They seem scattered, and they are. They want to show up fully, but how can they when they aren’t full. To the naked eye I never chose to fully commit. But God knew I was broken and in dire need of His hand. 

That last bang caused me to break and I was convicted to turn. I faced God like never before and spent time with His words, thoughts and ideas about me. When I emerged, I had a new mind and the fear of rejection vanished. I’m sure I could’ve found it if I looked, but it no longer served me.

Has the way things seem all around you knocked you harder than you would have liked? Are you suddenly feeling like, “this is it, this is the moment I’ll change, I’ve had enough of ignoring that deep inner call”?

When inertia knocked me over the last time it was a mix of public rejection and private pain that caused me to say, “Okay God! I’m listening! Fully! Every broken piece is here. This is all of me.”.  He received me when a broken me received Him. I committed to turning away from fear and turning towards God without apology. I didn’t need to explain to anyone why God was my new sight line. When the world is cold, rejection is a beautiful invitation to face God. Maybe the world around you is asking you to face God today. Perhaps that inner voice is calling you to turn. Does change want to take place in you?

Inertia changes you if you let it. You can reject the nudging of a "God allowed” circumstance. You can become angry and bitter but bitterness wont make it better. I know. I attempted it. Or, you can stop and take a second look at what life might be trying to show you. Circumstances come to introduce you to who you really are. You might have some ideas about who you are that need some God intelligence. Maybe this is your moment of reintroduction.

I wrote a short book over the weekend where I express just how I’ve learned to hear Gods voice in a place of isolation. Don’t let uncertain times pull you away from the inner cry that asks you to come closer to a God that wants to speak comfort to your heart. If you’re wondering how to hear His voice, pick up the ebook “How To Hear From God” and let the reading bring you peace.

Sending so much love your way.

xo

-CM