My Sister Broke Me And Then Asked Me To Dream

My Sister Broke Me Opened Me and Ignited Me,

I had a question asked about “dreaming” during my last Sistership Chat. It didn’t catch me off guard but I answered from an old mindset. 

I said to my sister, “I don’t believe much in dreams.” I told her I rather, “operate from purpose.”. 

Pastor Anthony Murray is a big time dreamer. He teaches us to believe in ourselves and let go of self doubt. Check out his book “What Happened To Your Dreams”. I’ve invited him to share his revelation on dreaming in The Sistership. He’s accepted. Stay tuned.

When I answered my sister, I didn’t lie, but I didn’t answer from a place of complete healing. In that moment, I realized that I really DID hear it when people told me I wouldn’t ever become anything ever again. 

When they told me that I began to create an identity out of “Christianity”. I asked my “self” to leave. They could have her. She was a lot to carry anyway. Sure, that sounds good. But today I’ve learned that there’s a such thing as a dreaming Christian. The beauty that I gave away still exists. It didn’t go anywhere, I just ignored it… until my sister asked me to dream again. There’s a such thing as goals and aspirations as a woman after Gods heart. You can imagine and soar and run after with out guilt or shame of not being “holy”. 

Anthony reminds us all the time that those with a regenerated heart receive desires straight from the throne. Mine feel silly sometimes. They feel small. Some days they feel squished. I feel like I’m exposing hopefulness when I dream and go after it. I’ve mentioned being petrified on my IG Lives before. It’s because I know a lot of people have told me “No” very loud. And it broke my hopes. It did. 

But that question, the one from my baby sister, it re-ignited me. Thank you @heavenlyerra. You’ve supported my shows, you’ve made me gifts, you’ve commented love and positivity in my darkest hour. This time you asked the question that opened me up. “Chris... are you dreaming? And how do you do so as a Christian? How do you balance Gods desires and yours? Is there a scripture for that?”

Thank you sis. And thank you to all the ladies in @the_sister_ship. I see you changing each other’s lives every day. I keep reminding you that I’m human. I can tell you have grace because you’re not just changing each other’s lives, you’re changing mine. 

Inner peace is the balance between being absolutely human and seeing the world around you while having faith for all the things you see inside. Revelation is the epic miraculous moment when your INNER SIGHT is opened up. There are people around us that uncover those blind spots. That’s what The Body Of Christ is all about. We sharpen each other. We teach and train each other. We see each other and God uses us to speak into each other’s lives so that we grow and He is glorified. This life, this walk, this journey is amazing.

So much gratitude,

CM

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